kristen-snoot:

B-but D-Dallon…

kristen-snoot:

But the invisibilty is not your fault, you turned invisible but you never chose that life for you. It’s not your fault that they are sad, you have done nothing wrong. Besides of being with me maybe, because I don’t know how this invisible shit works but if you would’ve been somewhere else you might’ve never turned invisible. So if you want to blame someone, blame me. Dallon, I know we’re stuck, I just want to help you, you can’t change that we’re stuck, but you can stop to be at least a little bit happier. I-I don’t know what would happen if we ever get visible again but your and my parents think we ran away together, so we could come back…B-but I miss you too, Dallon. Why not make it better?

You can’t sort out such things by yourself. I’m gonna ask someone to talk to you if you won’t talk to me about it. Yes, Mark is my boyfriend and he’s there for me. But that doesn’t mean at all that I don’t need you. You were my everything when we came here, I’m not willing to give that up. You were my first love and my best friend. You gave me more than the couple stuff, you were there for me when no one else was. And don’t you even dare to say you’re no good for me. I get that you didn’t want me anymore, I can live with that. But I can’t live with the feeling of you hating me or the thought of never seeing you again.

Tell me Dallon…please?! I know you can.

I’m not going to blame you Kristen! It isn’t your fault either. No Kris, we can’t go back… well. I can’t anyway. I just can’t face it. After breaking their hearts and then going back and acting as if nothing happened? I can’t do that. I’d feel like everything was a lie. Because we can’t…

I could sort it out by myself, and I did. Yes, Mark’s your boyfriend. You don’t need me around anymore. You really don’t. I don’t hate you, don’t get that in your head for one second.

I can’t… Kristen just leave it okay? I-I’m going…

kristen-snoot:

Yeah…I get that, it’s not easy. I saw it with my own eyes and I’m not gonna lie, it hurt. They’re coping okay, of course they are crying but they try to go on as normal as possible. And Dallon Fairbanks, believe me, this is anything but your fault. This is nobody’s fault, you don’t need to feel guilty. We’ll find our way back. What’s the problem then? I still want to spend my time with you or at least talk with you.

Dallon, your behaviour was not normal. You’re right, it had it reasons why you did it and you need to talk about it, so it won’t ever happen again. P-Please, y-you can’t leave me here. I need you because you have been part of my life for over a year, you are a steady part in my life, you are the one I thought I’d always have in my life. You get me, without saying much. Fuck, I need you, accept it. Always will.

No! Tell me- I won’t forget anything!

I don’t want to see what I did to them, them being upset is all down to me, turning invisible. We can’t go back Kris! We’re stuck here. Even if we try it’s never going to be the same again. And even if we do turn visible again, who’s going to believe us when we say we were invisible? Nobody. We’ll get locked up in mental homes. I just, I don’t think I can… I miss you too much, you don’t understand.

I know it wasn’t. I don’t need to talk about it. I’ve sorted myself out. I don’t want to talk about it. It’s not going to happen again. But, you have Mark now. I’m no use to you anymore. He can give you what I gave you in the past, I can’t do that anymore. I can’t protect you and hold you close anymore. That’s Mark’s job. You don’t need me anymore Kris… I’m no good for you.

I-I can’t Kris… I don’t think I can…

OOC: Fell asleep last night. Told you I was sleepy…

Gah Caroline! Snairbanks feels!

*heartbreak*

kristen-snoot:

Just do what’s right for you. I’d offer you help, even if I only should find someone else to go and help you. But it’s okay Dallon…do it whenever you’ll have the strength for it. No, I don’t. You don’t want any contact with me anymore?

I didn’t mean it, I just still don’t get why you did it. Go and talk to someone. And fuck, you’re not a mess, stop saying such things. Please! You should speak to me Dallon…you always should. Y-You’re my friend…and I need you.

I just, I’m scared to see what this whole thing might have done to them. I love them, and it might kill me to see my mother crying. If they’re not coping well, it’d be all my fault, I can’t deal with guilt like that. I love her Kristen, you know that. She’s my mother. I didn’t say that…

Because, because I did. I had my reasoning. I don’t want to talk about that Kris, it’s a bad memory. Something I’d rather forget. I feel better than that now… What do you need me for? I wish I could Kristen, but I can’t. I just can’t.

It’s because I-I— just forget it okay?

kristen-snoot:

Okay…

Everything thats worth fighting for in this world hurts. It could actually help you, checking on them and seeing they’re good. B-but Dallon…

You acted like you were five okay? Oh God Dallon, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to say that! I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry. Mark understands that to me, you’ll always be my friend. And that I need you.

I don’t think I could handle it, you know. It’d probably stress me out or something. I can’t go back to them and stay there, so I can’t go back at all. You don’t understand…

It wasn’t like that Kristen. It wasn’t. You did mean it… oh god I’m a mess. I shouldn’t have even spoken to you. I’m just a mess when it comes to us. Yes, but I don’t want to risk that Kris.

kristen-snoot:

Stop looking that sad, Dallon…wanna talk about something? I’m right here.

But Dallon, your family loves you and I think you should talk about them because you love them as well. You might not be able to go back, but you can look and see that they are doing fine, well more like that they do the best they can to go on with their lives, even though they miss you like crazy. But hey, I think they mentioned me only a few times- I’m obviously, the crazy bitch. We could hang out more often Dallon. You don’t need to miss me. I’ll always be there.

Oh you need one, I wanna check on you. Maybe I have an old one left, I can’t use the house. He would’ve been fine. My offer’s still open, if you ever want to go home, tell me, I’m gonna join you. If he’d kick your ass, I’d kick his…and he knows that he really doesn’t want that.

I’m fine. Really. I promise.

It’s hard to talk about them Kristen. I can’t go back if I can’t stay. It’s too hard, okay?  It hurts to think about them… I can’t Kris… you know that.

Why do I need to be checked up on? I’m not five. But yeah, if you want you can give me one or whatever. I can’t go home, alright? Yeah, but it’s probably not okay with him for you to be hanging out with your ex for a long amount of time.

kristen-snoot:

Okay, is probably the best I’ll ever get out of your mouth.

Mhm interesting and painful, I’d say. I also visited your parents. They still don’t like me, well they think I’m the cause of your disappearing. But yeah…they miss you like crazy Dallon. And so do I.

Sort of broke it? I’m gonna get you a new one. My boyfriend has nothing to do with this, I’m making my own decisions and I simply thought it would’ve been nice to have you with me.

Probably.

I don’t want to talk about my family Kristen… I can’t go back to them. Even if I want to. I can’t, I’m stuck here instead. I miss them lots too. And I can’t even go back and tell them I love them. I miss you too, but that’s not going to change either.

You don’t have to. I mean, I don’t really need one. Yes, but he could’ve got involved if he knew I was coming along too. Yes, that’s all well and good, but it wouldn’t have stopped him from kicking my ass when we got back…